One thing that I know I struggle with daily, is when to apply my filter and check myself. I'm not a easily angered person so it takes a bit much for me to get upset. But when I do, I battle with myself about what my response should have been or how I should or shouldn't react.
I think when I really get pissed, I hit 10 so quickly that it takes forever for me to get back to 0. I recently attended a baby shower and I came across this young lady that really had my blood boiling. I mean, she was just nasty. No reason for it all. I didn't know her and she doesn't know me. I seriously let her offend me a couple of times, each time trying to find a logical reason behind her actions, before I had reached my breaking point.
Now, I didn't show out at the baby shower out of respect for the guest of honor but I was pissed which made me think about how I let this stranger straight up alter my mood, which brought me to writing this post. I shouldn't have given this young lady the power to upset me because of her ignorance nor should I still be feeling any type of way about it. I think it simply just shocked me that someone I don't even know could be so rude.
I'm just a logical, thiniing person by nature. So, I try to rationalize everything before I come to my conclusion. What I need to work on is learning when to step back or walk away from the situation instead of suffering through it to prove to myself I can make it. I need to learn I don't have anything to prove. I need to learn to hone my power and never relenquish it. Not everything is going to make sense. Sometimes life won't add up. And when that happens i need to subtract myself from that mess.
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